Yesterday was nothing like I planned. I hate mondays. The morning went as I expected, I got up at my usual time, got dressed and wandered out the door as per usual. I went downtown and walked around by myself for a while. A bookstore caught my eyes and I went inside, looked around. The classics always bring me in. Today, I bought 'Moby Dick'. I've read it before, but I wouldn't mind reading it again. The book was way overpriced, but I decided that it was 'Nagi Day' and that I deserved it. Anyway, after that I just walked around, eventually getting to Koneko on my own.
The girls around there are absolutely crazy. Here is where things go down hill. They all thougt I was cute, of course, so they wanted to hang on me. Remember my last post? How much I hate crowds?? Yeah, they're lucky I didn't loose my cool. I pushed them back with my mind in subtle ways so they didn't realize it themselves really. They'd reach out a hand and I'd put a wall there, giving it the texture of clothing like the girls beside her. It was kinda draining and by the time I even got near the door to go inside, I was so frustrated with it all that I decided to just leave without my glimpse of the kittens. But suddenly most of them left with little gasps and I looked around to see Farf walking towards me. THERE IS A GOD.. wait.. I shouldn't say that in reference to Farf, I guess.... But he sure did save a few lives. Most of those cutesy girls would have found themselves face first in the wall if he hadn't shown up.
Once inside the shop, we made our slow way to the counter and, unexpectedly, that red-haired woman was there and helped Farf get his flowers. I can't imagine why the Berzerker wants flowers, but ok. As he had a long conversation with the woman, I scoped out the kitties. Ken seemed very much on edge. Gee, I wonder why? It's not like I almost killed him or the others a little while ago. Yohji gave me the evil eye once or twice, but otherwise ignored me, which was just fine with me. And Omi... The sunlight streamed in through the window and brightened his face and smile, played in his honey hair. That smile shown through his beautiful blue eyes. But he seemed nervous to see me there.
Makes me wish Weiss and Schwarz could kinda work out the fact that we're not enemies anymore. Business is business and real life is real life. Sure, I'd try to kill Omi again if we were on oposite ends of the line again. But... he's so sweet and beautiful that it would hurt me, also. Ack.. enough of those thoughts.... I hate it...
Anyway, I must have lost myself in Omi's eyes and hair to listen much to the conversation Farf had, but I swear I heard something about empathy. Does that woman have powers too?? Interesting.... Farf got his flowers and I was so ready to leave and go home, but he said that he wanted to take me to this little bookstore that he loved. I shrugged and followed him.. to my new favortie store. This place was all sorts of beautiful! Books wall to wall, along with manga, videos, posters, ect, ect. Unfortunatly there were so many people out and about that I was in a bad mood. I bought some old greek plays, though and we went home, thank god.
The whole day was just plain shitty!! I've been way to social lately. I can't take it anymore! I locked myself into my room for the rest of the day. Brad knocked once to see how school was ,Fuck that. I basically told him to fuck off. Though I'd never swear at him. My mood is pissing me off more it may lead to a bloody night for someone. Perhaps tonight I will.....